Hello people, welcome back to KUCHH BATAO NAA! We have another Inspirational Blogger this Sunday, Mrs Malini Srinivasa. She is new to Blogging, but the story of her fight was such a powerful one, it definitely has to be told. She is a great lady. 😇
Read on to find out about her fight with the most dreaded disease, Cancer! How she managed to stay positive during the worst phase, what inspires her, her thoughts about love and life, and how she loves her family unconditionally! Presenting, Mrs Malini Srinivasa.
Q1. Can you tell our readers about yourself and your blog?
I go by the name Malini Srinivasa. I’m a house wife. Mother of a 16 year old son. I came into blogging as I started getting random thoughts as soon as I see or read something.
Writing had been a passion for me since my school days. As I think you all know Saketh, I’m his Atta. He is the one who encouraged me and I started pursuing my passion again.
Q2. How would you describe your blogging style ? Dedicated to special genre ?
No special genre. My blogging style is normal. As I read messages and posts, I get to write the positive and the negative side too. Because our negative side tends to be positive to others.
Q3. What have you liked best about your life so far? What’s your happiest or proudest moment?
The happiest moment was the day I got a call from Jet airways that I got selected as an airhostess.
Q4. What is the most important thing that people DON’T know about you, that they need to know or something that you wanna share ?
I’m like an open book with people who know me. There is a character inside me that if anyone shares a secret with me, I keep it very well. I don’t think that I want people to know. I give a lot of counselling to my friends and whoever I feel are in trouble. I talk to them in a soothing manner.
Q5. Do you know your story can inspire a lot of people? Would you like to tell us about the difficult phase? How it felt when you were diagnosed with Cancer first, the treatment and after you fought it – the journey?
It was the November of 2008, that I was diagnosed with the disease called Hodgkin’s lymphoma. My world came crashing down. I should tell you all that I have a very beautiful and complete family. We were in Gujarat’s beautiful city. My son was very little and we were enjoying a totally different culture.
After being diagnosed, we flew back to Hyderabad for a second opinion and a hope that it isn’t true. But God’s will was something else. Treatment had to be given. The first day of chemotherapy was good and through all the 12 cycles, my husband never left my hand, my in-laws took care of me which was a big support and strength to struggle through the process and so were my parents.
After the treatment was over, I was getting back to leading a normal life. After completing 5 years of remission, hell broke loose as I was diagnosed with the comeback of the disease. I had not even a clue about it as nobody was prepared for the worse.
The treatment of chemotherapy which consists of 12 cycles began which was much painful than the previous. I was on oral and IV chemotherapy. During this treatment, my doctor never gave me the hope that I was getting better.
My instincts were telling me that something was terribly wrong. 12 cycles concluded on November 14th, 2014. The time period of June-November was filled with anxiety, pain, restlessness, depression. I thought everything finally ended. The doctor gave me a relaxed time of 3 months.
In the month of March, what was supposed to be a routine check up ended up as a beginning of a new chapter of my life. I was suggested to go for a better treatment which was called autograft. It was stem cells transplantation.
Life came to a standstill phase as I entered the American Oncology Institute, where the stem cells transplantation was going to take place. After performing some routine tests, date was fixed. This date was for administration of IGEV, another cycle of chemotherapy. I spent a week in the hospital room. Hallucinations became a part of my life, as I started seeing people I have never seen and things crawling on the walls of the room.
Before administering IGEV, a catheter was inserted. It was soon removed as it was infected and I contacted fever. I was discharged for the time being followed by a series of injections to be taken daily at the hospital.
It was on the 7th of May I was inserted with a catheter again with extra care. The following day was collection of my own stem cells. The collection itself was such a dreaded situation where on port of my catheter was connected to a machine which would separate the stem cells and the blood would be pumped back into my body through a canola.
Cells were connected twice, before putting me into isolation followed by BEAM chemotherapy. After 19 days of isolation, I was finally discharged to go home. It was a victorious evening as I walked out of the hospital with pride. Life was never going to be the same again.
The journey since my discharge from the hospital was a tricky and tedious one. Psychological discomforts, hallucinating, the nightmares were haunting me day and night. I never wanted to wake up because I had the fear of ending up in the same hospital room.
Right now I am back with health but not as the same. Anxiety disorder, depressed feelings, hauntings of the trauma reside within me till date. Every morning I still thank God that I woke up and I woke up in my room, in my house.
But the journey must go on. Life has to move on. Life has to move on because some day I will. I want people suffering from cancer to know that they aren’t alone. If one person has cancer the whole family suffers from the pain.
Q6. Which one person is the biggest source of inspiration for you?
One person who is a big source of inspiration for me is my cousin Vaasanthi. Though she is much younger to me it’s quite amazing how she’d handle each and every situation that comes with such ease.
Q7. What have you liked best about your life so far? What’s your happiest or proudest moment?
The best about my life is that though I am 39, I am still a 6 years old girl. The proud moment is yet to come. Happiest moment was my son’s results. Happy because I didn’t look after his studies but he kept his promise.
Q8. If you could go back in time and change history, what would you change and why?
If I could change the history, I would go back and save our language, Sanskrit and culture. Because that was the backbone of India.
Q9. Can you name some of your favourite bloggers and explain why they are your favourites?
I know very few of them. Starting with:
1. Antara, she is an soul writer. Her blogs are quite touching.
2. Mahima Singh. Her blogs are full of love and serenity.
3. Shyam Sunder Bulusu. He is a reality writer. His poems and stories are visualised through words.
4. Chandni. She is a Firefly of thoughts in both the languages.
5. Mahesh. He is an awesome awesomenger, next to Robert Frost.
6. Saketh. He is a Sportskeeda who taught me how to listen and speak the language of football.
Q10. Is it better to have loved and lost or never to have loved at all?
Neither of these. It is always good to have loved and stay in love. Love is a feeling which grows faster in time. If you had loved and lost, you were never in love.
Q11. What does “being spiritual” mean to you?
Knowledge about self without judging others. Loving yourself without the permission of others. Being spiritual is like treating yourself like a temple where the supreme resides.
Q12. What is the most memorable gift that you’ve ever received? Why is it so close to you?
The most memorable and experiencing gift is my husband’s family. Things are material. My family had been a very good support to me, just as my mom and dad.
Q13. Do you believe in ‘Soul Mates’? Why or why not?
I believe in soul mates. Soul mates could be friends or spouse or there can be a soul family too. I believe because I have people in my life whom I can call as soul mates. My husband, sister-in-law, my good friend Rajini, I don’t know how they can read my mind.
Q14. Do you have a philosophy of life? What’s your best piece of advice for living?
My philosophy of life would be that, be a good person. And when it comes to advice, it will be that live your life in the present. Don’t look back or see further until and unless necessary.
I was a careless person. But the past two years of bad phase has taught me the wonderful thing called living.
Q15. What would you like to end with?
I would like to tell you that I am just a beginner in the blogging world and you people are awesome writers. I don’t hesitate to say that you all inspire me through your blogs.
“We come into the world with a purpose. Everything happens at the right time.”
Mahesh: I’m awestruck after reading what you have gone through .. I can’t even imagine how painful it must have been .. Not just you but for your whole family … You are a fighter .. fighter who has survived through this .. kudos. Idk what to say ..
You are an inspiration, to be honest, this whole interview series is making me realize that problems in my life are nothing & still I used to be upset about them. It’s my honor to be with someone who haa successfully fought the deadliest battle. Thank you so much Antara for suggesting Malini ji’s name for this interview.
Chandni: Ma’am, I am sooo grateful to know someone like you. A BIG salute to your positive spirit. You seriously are a big Inspiration. I mean, when I look back at my life, I feel really bad about myself. When people suffering from such a dreaded disease were so positive, so full of life, why am I not? You gave my life a deeper meaning. I am inspired to stop crying over little things in life.
I am inspired to fight back and never loose hope. It’s a great pleasure to have known such a courageous woman. I wish you all the happiness and love. Thankyou very much for sharing your story. :mrgreen:
If anyone of you has some different questions for her, you’re welcome. She would be glad to answer you all. Another update, this Interview Series will be continued further by Antara and Saketh. Till then, take care guys! And do let us know who you’d like to have next in the Series. :)