I just came across a poem that I wrote when I was in 10th standard. It’s been four years to it, but this poem still makes me cry everytime I read it. 😂 I wrote this in utter frustration with the world and its people. This always makes me feel like the ugly reality, the naked truth of my life is presented before me. 😂 Go on, read it. This girl, she hides everything from everyone, but the truth finally reflects on those letters scribbled in her notebook. 💙

Lonely, I’m lonely!

One may see me surrounded by friends,
One may say many friends I own.
But the fact for real, is actually that,
I’m alone, I’m really alone.

At the times when I need someone,
I look back to realize that there’s none.
Walkin’ by the roads, I’ve no one to talk,
Lonely, I’m lonely in the silent roadside walk.

In this long-long journey called LIFE,
I’ve got nothin’ to do but strive.
To have a ‘SO CALLED FRIEND’ of my own,
And then watch them leaving me alone.

I don’t know why this always happens with me,
There is nobody who can actually understand me.
Can’t figure out if it’s their fault or mine,
But it always just ends with me foolishly cryin’.

What are best friends, I don’t actually know,
Lonely, I’m lonely, I really feel so.
Friends only leave my hand, let me fall down the stairs,
It’s the same with life, no one actually cares.

Today I realise, that a friend in life is a must,
But rarely find someone who’s worthy of my trust.
I’m getting isolated, waitin’ for my call,
Lonely, I’m lonely, with no company at all.

Searching the one who’ll always hold my hand,
Whatever be the situation, who’ll always understand.
Someone who’ll care, who’ll feel my pain,
Lonely, I won’t be ever again.

Who’ll smile when I smile, cry when I cry,
In every problem of mine, who’ll strongly stand by.
Who’ll be there to cheer me, whenever I’m low,
Lonely, who’ll never make me feel so.

Who’ll never let me drop even a single tear,
Who’ll be really special, a friend very dear.
This crazy silence is badly killin’ me,
But I know, someone’ll come for fulfillin’ me.

I’ll surely find the one, my TRUE FRIEND FOREVER,
“Lonely, I’m lonely”, I’ll never feel ever.
“Lonely, I’m lonely”, never again forever! 💙

Hehe, afterall, Tiny Firefly felt the same. She understood me perfectly. 😻 Our feelings didn’t change in these few years. I might really love solitude, but yes, sometimes even I feel the need for a friend who could understand ☺, even I feel the piercing pain of loneliness sometimes. I wish I could have such a friend who would just accept me with my behaviour. ❤☺

Source: Lonely..I’m lonely :(


17 Comments Add yours

  1. mana apoorva says:

    Chandni my dear girl! Do you know who can be a person’s best friend? And who can be the worst enemy? Its his/her own self. I strongly believe and act upon this. Be friend of your inner self. Treat it like a princess. Make yourself so engrossed in your activities, your pleasure; that you’d not need anyone. Converse constructively with yourself. And you won’t need anyone else. Every else if welcome. But you come first to yourself. Love yourself. Be forgiving. Be kind!

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    1. Didiii! ☺☺ Super happy to receive another comment from you. Yes, I remember you told this to me several times before too. I am working upon it, being kind to myself and trying to understand myself. But, it becomes very difficult at times. When I hate myself, I try to find a friend in someone else. 😬😂 But, as I promised, I am walking towards the ‘Woman of Substance’. And your comments always encourage me, I feel lucky when you comment. ❤ Thankyou so much dii. ☺☺


  2. Rohit Nag says:

    Wow…to aap bahut pahle se hi bahut acha likhti hai…..4 saal pahle k poem me bhi bilkul wahi baat……beautiful <3

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    1. Awww! ☺☺ Thankyou so much, Rohit. I am soo happy aapko ye poem achhi lagi. 😇 Shukriyaa!

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    2. Rohit Nag says:

      Pleasure is all mine Chandni ;)

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  3. Akshay Swami says:

    Wow 😲….I am amazed.

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    1. Haha! Yayyyy. 😹

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  4. Akshay Swami says:

    So well crafted words chandni..
    So it seems you have been writing poems for so long.
    Back in your school days.
    Experience can surely be seen through ones poem and words.
    Seems life you have a great one.

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    1. Yess, I wrote my first poem when I was 9. It was about one girl called Julie. 😹 Haha, I just read this poem again, and I still find every word of it so true. These are all just bad experiences. You know, pain is one necessary element in the making of a poet, do you agree? 😺

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    2. Akshay Swami says:

      Yaa true pain is very important.
      Pain describes a lot .
      Experience come from bad experiences.
      It’s so true.
      So you are experiencing things since your childhood.
      Well great. Earlier I found these things a full waste of time and rubbish stuff.
      I use to laugh at the word pain.
      But time shows you all. I still laugh at the worst to worst situations. People just don’t get it. But anyway I laugh because there is nothing to show bad emotions and anyway I know that I am adding it to my experience.😶

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    3. Yess, that’s such a great way to think. Laugh in your worst times, and you’ll always remember them with a smile. 😛 Haha, and I laugh at the word “Pain” even today. I try to be happy and spread happiness everywhere. That brings me sooo much peace. 🌼
      And, I feel great talking to you, hehe. 😇

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    4. Akshay Swami says:

      Yaa life is not so easy . So laugh even in your worse. Remember this is hell. As far as my studies are concerned.
      You also laugh…..that so cool and much needed for survival.
      Yaa spread happiness. Great thinking.
      Every other person is sad out there.
      Problems may differ for person to person. But in the end it’s important to make this hell better somehow.
      Yaa me too.😇

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    5. Haha, this is Hell cause every other day one comes across so many problems. 😹 I will make one little heaven for myself and my people here. 💕 Thankyou again, you know, it’s partially because of what you said few days back that I was able to continue writing. “Firefly never stops.” Yayy. 🐝

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    6. Akshay Swami says:

      Oh dats great….I am very glad that my words helped someone to continue.😃😃…..and yaa never stop….keep going. You can always do more. In whatever it is.😃😃

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    7. Hehe, thankyou again. You are sweet. 🌼

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