These three words, they look very normal at first, but have the power to destroy anything and everything we can think of, and most importantly, ourselves! One cannot just remember how this thought starts to take possession of them, it happens subconsciously. Slowly, it starts affecting every day-to-day life decision that we make. Whenever we come across an opportunity, the first thought that crosses our mind is, ‘Log kya sochenge’!
Think of the innumerous times you’ve restricted yourself from doing the things you wanted to do, things that you really loved, things that made you happy and contented. For me, half of my writing remained unpublished, half of my feelings remained unfelt, half of my thoughts remained unthought, half of my life remained unlived! These three words, they’re like termites, they eat you up from the inside. While you look completely normal externally, your soul is brutally bitten away!
The fear that this one thought has cast upon us is so unimaginably strong, remember when you agreed to bunk just for the fear of not being a part of the group? Just for them to not call you a baby? Remember when you reluctantly pushed yourself into that tight dress, just for the sake of people! Remember when you agreed to drink when you didn’t want to? Remember making a boyfriend just so your friends accept you in the gang? Remember sacrificing all your comforts for people? Remember living by their standards?
I mean, how did we assume by ourselves that our friends won’t accept us if we show them our real side? How did we assume that they won’t like us that way? Why did we not stand up for what we felt was right? Why give people so much importance that they start to overpower our lives? Why allow them to eat up our dreams, desires, our spirits?
And when we think of ‘Log kya sochenge’, who are these ‘log’ by the way? Can we name some of them? Why are we so scared of them? Because they criticize us? Do they come to admire us when we achieve things? No? They still find faults in the little good that we do. In a way, we can never please them. They would never appreciate us, no matter how hard we try. So be it! If whatever we do, does not shut them, then why not just close our ears to what they speak.
Be unaffected to whatever they think of you, what matters is what You think of you.
For once, give importance to yourself, your likes, your dreams, your aspirations. Just like a little kid doesn’t care of the world, she wears whatever she feels comfortable, she doesn’t hide feelings, she smiles a real, bright, loving smile, she wails and wakes up the house, she dances carelessly, she makes silly mistakes and laughs at them, she displays affection so tenderly, she lives carefree, she doesn’t care who’s watching, she just keeps crawling, and walking, and falling! She is real, and beautiful!
For once, let our heart speak and let us listen to it, uninterrupted. Let’s not hand someone else the remote control of our life, let us love ourselves infinitely. Let us open our palms to catch the drops of love pouring onto us! Let us dance in the rain, let us be kids once again. 💙